Return to my mind with stranger pain:
Like letters that arrive addressed to someone
Who left the house so many years ago.
— Philip Larkin (via observando)
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery
It is sad to forget a friend. Not everybody has had a friend. I don’t want to become like those grown-ups who only care about numbers.
— Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince. (via wordsnquotes)
I think I have always liked October. There’s something about this month that works as an ideal reality check of the year that has gone by: A perfect balance of panic, to make you feel “n-n-no, I can’t let this year be filled with nothingness”; hope, that you still have three months to get at least one thing on that new year re(used)solution list scratched out before any form of motivation gives way to resignation in December; and a sense of urgency, that “there might still be time but please don’t be a fool, don’t go wasting it”, that just doesn’t come with months like June, or July.
And maybe that’s why October always ends up feeling like the most difficult month for me. But I do like it, because it feels real. Like a football kicked at your face sort of real. Hits you first real hard, is it already October? And then you’re given time to take it in, and deal with everything after. And you can go fix things—attend to the bump on your head, the cut on your finger, the bruise in your heart, and the lists in your life.
Don’t leave them be anymore.
I have always liked October.
Perhaps even more so after properly experiencing the change in seasons. When fall’s here and things start to slowly die but they will return again as something else, but not quite at the same time. And even if it is sad now, it will be okay. Because the things that die aren’t truly dead. There’s a difference, I believe. And fall’s beautiful.
So, I will take beautiful today.
What more can we ask for?
Hello, October. Be kind.
But 1+1=0 too.
Now, isn’t that interesting?
And when we get to 0,
It is not nothing; it is a new beginning.
Refresh(ed).So, you do the math.
— Philip Larkin (via observando)
I hate you so much.
it is easy to imagine that everything remains the same, that it was like before, or that your stupidity and mistakes could be erased with a painful nod of self-knowledge and regret . Day by day, you get by, and then one day you realise what a freaking mess you’ve created.
Are you left chasing rainbows?
— Ralph Waldo Emerson (via ohhhkat)
— Howard Thurman (via hip-)
Calvin: If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I’ll bet they’d live a lot differently.
Hobbes: How so?
Calvin: Well, when you look into infinity, you realize that there are more important things than what people do all day.
Almost coming to the end of my first year as a PhD student. Feels like I have done nothing, that I have just been passing time. Yet, it also feels like I have done quite a bit, I am just not too sure what exactly. But much has changed, and I guess this is what happens when you don’t pay too much attention to everything.
May I learn to change my bicycle tyre when it’s flat, instead of ignoring it, riding on like nothing is wrong; one can only cycle on steel for so long before you set yourself on fire.
Billy Joel - Vienna
Lately, songs are all I have.